Well, what can I say, getting sarcastic is all that's left for me, unless I want to start complaining and whining, what I have no intentions of doing.


It definitely does, it's been already 2 months since I don't draw almost at all. It's incredible how school manages to get all the creativity out of me. But it can't be any other way, if late evening, when I have finally finished all homework, my only wish is to sleep.

But anyway, there are also good news, recently I started drawing again and soon I'll have one week of holidays during which I have planned to finish lots of unfinished drawings which I have started weeks ago.

And also I thought I might post the only "artwork" I have made since September. It was my entry for a science themed poster contest. By the way, if you have any critics about this poster, I would like hearing them. I was already told about some of the mistakes I have made here, but I still would like to hear, because I must improve in vector art.


(And here huge thanks goes to *cepums for helping me with text layout and picking color shades for background in this poster.)

Text on it says "Will you go to study exact sciences?" only in Latvian. This bear-eared guy comes from Latvian national epic, in which he was a hero fighting for freedom of Latvia in 13th century. And the meaning of poster was making him more modern, a scientist, who would ask youth to study sciences, to have good education and thus help country.

And I didn't won the contest, I didn't got any prizes in it, despite the fact that there were only about 50 entries. And the annoying thing is that I haven't seen the winning works, but I so hope that they are better than mine. Because when I loose to a better work, I can accept that and that means only that I need more practice and to try harder next time. But loosing because of judges, when I personally don't consider winning works good at all, that's more painful.


Well, that's the only joy I have had in my life in the last 2 months. I'm not generalizing now, but after every lesson I have at school after every homework I do, I ask myself what I have learned from it. And that don't happens often, but sometimes I can answer only with "nothing". And at such moments I start hating it all. So, when teachers give me ridiculous homework, I write just as ridiculous essays, because they are obliged to read all that crap I have written.

For example when I had to write an essay about time in literature, I wrote in it a quote from Nietzsche about dieing and referred to Theodore Kaczynski's (one of the FBI most wanted criminals for more than 10 years) opinion about society. And after my psychology teacher gave me a lover mark for one homework, because in it I had less sentences than she wanted (you know I have a habit of writing really long sentences) and it wasn't written on white A4 page (it's ridiculous to write on A4 size such short text, that it don't even covers half of the page, because my handwriting is with small letters) next time she asked us to write 200 word essay, instead I wrote 700 words with so long sentences that one sentence was in the length of a whole paragraph and in addition to that I made text layout in CorelDraw with pretty, artistic font for title, graphics on the paper edges around text and an artistic layout according to how magazines are written and printed it on white A4 paper.

Or maybe I'm just desperate... Trying to revolt against what I see as wrong and pointless, what I hate in my life, yet knowing that it will be useful and I won't change anything. And who knows, maybe no one from those who are correcting these essays of mine will never understand my reasons why I write essays like these.

But whatever... There's no difference anyway. After less than 2 years I'll get away from school and then no one including myself won't care.